2009

I realized tonight in lack of sleep and no reason to sleep that alot has changed. Every year I write what's changed in the last year and post it on AP then what I hope to accomplish in the next year later. This year however I felt maybe I should share it. I started the year and will end it in the same way single. I welcomed in the new year with a great party with great people and lots of kissing from random people ( I'm almost surprised I didn't get something.....directed toward one woman). It was a blast with to much rum and coke, an inconvient call from Robert and a weird conversation with a person I would still call my friend though he was totally trashed. It continued with school, work and thirsty thursdays. James started bringing kortnee around with her shit about being a high priestist and crap and I called her on it. Feburary was interesting with our trip to DIA to pick up Robert in a blizard with my boss calling with weather reports instead of letting me off work early. My birthday was great with all my friends including Robert, and my sister and god daughter Luna. Pie was never so much fun. And the party was beond intersting. Thanks to Ben and a "nightmare" I know what happened expect with Amie and then I just feel bad. It was fun till I forgot (moral of the story....no more mixing). Over the next month some how Amie became Kortnee's friend (hey we all make mistakes) Long story short we finaly got rid of the underage trash though it took somework since something kept draging her back in. I was crowned Honored Queen in Jan and the hardest day of the year was in May. When Alexis, Megan, Tim and Jaella along with all the other Jobies made me bawl like a baby. But the hardest part was when my dad brought up Mere. I finally passed her and our ring broke (megan and alexis probably get that). The year continued before the drama of Bitch one moving out and claiming we can't be friends with Ben. I'm glad the dission for James and Amie to move into the trailer happened, because it allowed Amie and I to make a good friend and gave James sober time with his drinking partner. The movies we're always fun as were the parties at the end. Summer flew by and by the end there were times I wish someone remembered. Time with Ben and James was fun though I wish Amie and I would have never gotten into that stupid fight but it did give her Meranda and that was great. Andrew and Meranda hooked up and though its alittle weird they are great together too. Ben left and Bitch one got pissed because James and I cleaned out that was good or she'd promised to others. I was ok with it. Time passed, Amie and I fixed things and time flew....I mean really it did. I started school and new people started at work. Rikki came and I met one of my newest friends. At first I thought she'd be the new pet but it wore off and now were together alot. To shorten my year to a less boring bit. Everyone was friends till I kicked James out for reasons already mentioned and we aren't friends anymore but I have great ones anyway. At some point in the year I got back with Jason....Sometime after March. We were kind of together till Sept and I ended it. As he said it'd be the last time. There'd be no fixing it again. It hurt to do but I really am happy. Maybe one day our paths will cross again but who knows (shut up all of you it had to be said and its true. I'll always love him just as I'll always love Ryan). I've been single a good couple months now and between work, school, and friends expect the lack of sex I haven't really felt it. Ben came back, got sick, slept on my couch and then left for the Army (damn him for not writing). Things have changed now I go see movies now, we have game nights, just all talk and hookah resently on trivia nights. Eric passed away and I saw the crushing emotions it caused. I only hope it brings forward creativity. My favorite part of this year though was going to San Diego and seeing Robert. My dad was right the ships interesting though I still believe they need to coil the ends of their ropes, and I'm a firm believer sailing is better. It was a great trip minus the impound lot and the sad art museum, but it just means I'll have to go back sometime and go to the DAM (Denver Art Museum) sometime soon (KATE???? :} without the snow though). I hope the year ends as good as its been. Minus all the drama and the broken feeling I've had inside. I hope work gets better and maybe Maida will quit (long story). And my simple goal for 2010..... make it count. I'm to graduate, possible move, keep up with my family friends and life, maybe find some relationship, I turn 21 and this year I'll remember even if it hurts. 

Things I've learned- 
-Don't travel to denver in snow storms
-Never listen to a stupid bitch
-I can blame all woman for my monthly problem
-Don't lend your car to anyone
-You only get love from your pets (everyone else will hurt you) 
and
-There's always a siliver lining. 

Noelle as of 12/11/2009