2008

As I look back on the last year I see how much things and I have changed. 
A year ago my parents were in Mexico like they are now only they'd only left yesterday, and I was getting ready for a job interview at Dillard’s. I got the job and ended up quitting the animal shelter. A great start to 2008. I quit day one! At the start of the year I never would have guessed I'd no longer be on and off with Jason, that I would have been engaged, have lived with both Amie and James, that my best friend would have had a child, brother gotten married, got further into the jewelry business, lost a scholarship or everything else that happened. 
Christmas was spent in Christian form with Manda and Mommy 2's family which was a true holiday experience. Got the job at Dillard’s working with jewelry and with that crazy brit I love so much Fiona, I quit the shelter unable to work from 7am sat and sun to 9 that night and week nights with school and jobies. 
I was installed junior princess for Molly's term which I made it though and the year proceeded with my birthday unnoticed except for Robert and Maria getting married shortly after and moving in with Amie up stairs from Jaella. Thus the Knights came into existence and that was truly the best part of the year as I haven't had friends like I do now in so long. Megan and I had drama once we found out she was pregnant but that all got resolved in the end as Luna was welcomed into the world a stunning little girl who's 2 months old now. 
 Living with Amie was a trail and the dish fairy did commit suicide so don't forget to do them yourself. But I’d do it again. I got a best friend that way and learned what one really is. 
Jason and I got closer while growing farther apart and I lost myself and my poetry somewhere in the mix. CFD came and a concert was the main plan outside of working two jobs though it when the concert died and Jason purposed. I bought my own ten dollar ring and was happy for sometime as I thought of a wedding still goofing it up with the knights though tension between them and Jason grew. Finally by September I was so lost in myself I didn't know what to do anymore so I let go of myself but James was there with Amie to catch my sorry ass and get me up. 
This is about the time I met Kayla and Jeanne along with Ben and all the other 11-7 crowd which has become close as the knights to me. I know I can come to Jeanne with almost any problem just as I can to any of them including Robert who at some point in the year got a divorce from his whore of a wife but failed to tell me. And my grade school best friend got married. So with work, school and friends my life finally seems right as I’m starting to actually write again. 
Though I never thought I would stop fighting for that stupid boy I fell so hard for and was determined to win in the end I have though he’s still one of my best friends I know it would take a lot more work then I have time for to fix it. I’ve never cheated unless you count Brad and Andrew F in the 10th grade when they both thought it would be cute to ask me out on Valentine’s Day and I broke up with both of them the next day Mr. Were going to go fuck in your car and the sweetest guy ever. But for some reason after being told I did so many times I feel like I may bave. The morning of the concert when we were in a break I screwed someone and again later this year. Looking back it was something that needed to happen and I’ll always laugh at with the lines that came from that night. “twenty dollars…..I don’t care” and “Your mine” but you know what it wasn’t worth it. Now I’m starting to hang up my hats to Andrews….or the like as I like another though I know nothing will ever come of it but that’s alright by me I could be wrong. 
Maybe 2009 will be different. I hope the knights live on, and that Shane gets his son which should be decided soon. Maybe I’ll get to go visit Robert like I hope to in Feb but who knows as Amie’s already planning revenge on James and I. 
So Here’s to the Knights, New friends, Old Friends, Relationships and late nights. To turning 20 and whatever else will come. 

And remember never use Funk, Sex Bomb, Pelvis, or Spawn in a sentence….unless I’m somehow pregnant! lol